FAREWELL PARTY WAS FUN!!im starting to love 2e6 all over again.i was like so hyperactive.jumping all the way.LOL.but im the only one!but anyway.we'll miss rachel.dont cry okay.stay cute and happy!lol.dont really know what to blog now.

i feel so bad now.but but but.i might be wrong.i hope so!cos USUALLY,most of the time,EVERYTIME, im correct.i hope im wrong.i hope so.HOPEFULLY.

im slow.im really really slow.and i think i suck now.my personality sucks.my attitude sucks.my results suck.what more can i say.but people dont seem to notice.hmm.OH WELL.i hope they dont.
rockstar!, 10:36 PM
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AHHHHHHHHHH.failed ss la.and this time im CONFIRMED that i'll fail.source based i cant do half the questions and essay i cant explain either.I HATE SS!ahhh.gotta work hard on my geog.only one more week to main paper!gotta study really really hard.today sucked.the exam sucked.S.P.A sucked.only thing that rocked was the eng exam.damn easy la.but usually the scores i get wont be so.lol.OH WELL.if i can pass ss i'll be SO SO SO HAPPY.but most likely i wont be happy=(

okay heck abt the exams.cant stand them anymore.i got this feeling that i'll do VERY badly for the mid years.i wanna score better results.anyway so sad la.rachel's last day tmr.hmm.will miss her=)

sometimes i really contradict myself.what am i thinking?
rockstar!, 4:49 PM
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OMG this place is jinxed.SO JINXED.all the bad stuff keeps happening.AND ITS ALL SOMEHOW RELATED TO THE SCHOOL.seriously!someone needs to drive the unluckiness away.i cant stand it man.everyone seems to be getting injured.i wonder will it be my turn soon.kks TOUCH WOOD.lol.hopefully i wont get injured.AHHH i didnt bring english file home.WTF WTF.trying hard to remember the format.nahh better double check just in case i remembered the wrong thing.AND GET MARKS DEDUCTED.cant afford that to happen.but no matter how careful i am.the marks somehow gets deducted too!OH WELL.thats just how its supposed to be=(

so confused.sometimes i think too much.BUT somehow i dont think deep enough.contradicting huh.so what im trying to say is.its not my fault i dont get the msg!i just cant read inbetween lines.just one thing i cant figure out.why do i have all the smart friends but im the slow one=( ppl.u need to understand that i've got low IQ okay!

AND 3e2 makes me even more stressed.seriously.ITS SERIOUSLY STRESS MAN.look all arnd me.all the smart asses.im nobody.i wanna study.but i cant.always theres something to distract me.i really cant cope!god:dont have to make me smarter.just make my class stupider.OH WELL.
rockstar!, 5:59 PM
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went sungei buloh this morning.i was late!and the bus u-turned back to school JUST FOR ME.LOL.and when i went up the bus saw ms tan mr lee and 20 over teachers.LIKE WTF.shud have said i didnt want to go.damn paiseh.and we arrived late JUST BCOS OF ME.LOL!but anyway.it was fun la.would have been better if the whole cls was there.the mud rocked!lovely.lol.and after the whole thing THERE WAS BUFFET!ate like one whole plate FULL of food.so hungry.and then err.we went back.dont feel like blogging much abt today.nothing nice happened anyway.
received one sms frm steph ytd.says if you forward it to 3 ppl something good will happen today.arnd 6pm.i dont forward msgs.but the msg came at the right time, and i cant take any chances.so i forwarded.hoping something good will happen.the whole class was thinking abt the same thing when they saw the msg.hoping jiecai will wake up.but the msg didnt work.STILL.we wont give up hope.HE WILL WAKE UP SOON.5000 cranes thats it.if he still doesnt wake up.we'll fold some more.
jiecai!wake up!u need to.3e2 isnt whole w/o you.we're all waiting for you to come back=)
rockstar!, 12:10 AM
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oh gosh.i just hate the year 2006.sucks man.its so sickening.all the stupid stuff happening.whats wrong with my sch.its so jinxed.and hopefully jiecai will wake up soon.xiaobaicai wake up!everyone is praying hard for you!
OH yah.i passed ss.but its still a fail for my combined humans.OH WELL.maybe its meant to be.
rockstar!, 4:36 PM
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shti shit shit.im like DEproving for all my tests.how to sit for mid year like that.sure fail everything.dammit.sec3 is like.so bloody stupid.its all abt application.no more textbooks.and even if you studied you cant score either.i really pity myself.im like.a total failure.i failed history-2nd last in class.just pass english.failed geog.got b4 for chinese,but i couldnt find anyone with lower marks than me.so i assume im the lowest.and even if im not.im still at the lower end.SO U SEE MY POINT.im such a failure.wont be surprised if i got last in class this year.cant take the pressure man.i need a new brain.ahhh.its raining.again.i miss the sun.makes me feel happier.the rain is so depressing la.SAD.i guess there'll never be a happy day for me before the exams.ahhh dont dare let mum sign history paper!shit fuck HOW.
rockstar!, 6:16 PM
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SAD SAD SAD. oh well thats me.
i've got nothing more to say.everything is just so depressing.cant i just live one happy day before the miserable exmas?!!!
rockstar!, 8:01 PM
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yay.tmr's a happy day.good friday.means.NO SCHOOL!i love public holidays.who doesnt.lol.school sucks now.with all the homework.and BORING lessons.totally suck.cant stand the teachers.its either i cant understand what their teaching, or im falling asleep during lessons.which means.i didnt learn much la.mid year is coming!less than a month for me to prepare.but its not like i'll prepare till like the last week or one day before.but maybe.MAYBE i'll be good this time and study=)im gonna be determined.i wont come online during exam period.NO I WONT.i shouldnt.i wont.i wont.okay i'll try=x i got this feeling.that i'll fail at least two subjects durng mid year.how?!if i fail, im gonna be SO dead.i'll have tuition.which means.no time for myself!SOBS.i hate tuitions.who the hell came up with tuitions anyway.what a bad idea.i need motivation!cant seem to study.cant concentrate.FREAK.all the distractions.i cant study!!stupid exams.stupid teachers.stupid subjects.STUPID ME.
i want the mcr's latest album and memoirs of a geisha vcd!saving up for that=)
rockstar!, 9:13 PM
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WOOOOOOOOOO~
im so happy=)
passed MATHS.both emaths and amaths.YAY.so proud of myself.and!my phone recovered!can msg,can call and can be used now.except theres still a patch behind the screen.but its beginning to clear off.SO!my phone is okay now.got such strong willpower.lol.PHEW.and i thought i was gonna get scolding from parents.the phone saved my life!
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GOSH.i cant stand her.
can u not jump to any conclusions before you dont even know half the story?dont make stupid assumptions cos it sounds REALLY STUPID.and can you not spread the WRONG INFO around?and spoil others' rep and pretending to be the victim.before you think what we're doing is unfair to you,think abt what you did before.AND.dont talk behind our backs.we know.and upon confrontation PLS dont be a coward and deny.it only shows how guilty you are.
rockstar!, 3:20 PM
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SOBS!!!!!!!!
dropped my phone.IN WATER!!so sad.i wanna cry!!and im not planning to tell my parents.i'll just buy another same phone.SOBS!cant imagine what will be their reaction.I DROPPED IN TOTAL 3 PHONES IN THE WATER.if i tell them.i'll be deaf in an hour or so.and!the worse thing would be.they wont buy me such phones anymore.and i cant live w/o handphones!feel so insecure w/o it.i can go out w/o my wallet but never w/o phones!ahhhh!why is that such unlucky stuff keeps happening to me?!!i cant stand it anymore.STRESSED.breaking down.
rockstar!, 12:03 AM
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omgomgomg.i cant stand it anymore.EVERYONE IS PISSING ME OFF.guys and gurls alike.ladies and gentlemen too.is it me??!or was it them!!ahhh.maybe its stress.im hating it!i hate everything.im so frustrated.i wanna shout now.release all my anger at one go.AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!fuck you.fuck everyone who pisses me off.FUCK YOU ASSHOLE.SELFISH IDIOT.IF YOU'RE UPSET DONT FUCKING VENT YOUR FUCKING ANGER ON ME.I WONT FIGHT BACK.TO SOME EXTENT.but if u go any further.im not sure what will happen.all these tests and homework are driving me mad.dont add on to it.PLEASE.maybe i should isolate myself for awhile.calm down before i talk to you again.so i'll be able to take it if you make me ur punching bag again.changes really do that much to a person.i cant stand you now.if you dont trust me,FINE.i dont wanna know YOUR secrets anyway.u really piss me off.wheres the girl i've known for the past two years.GONE.
rockstar!, 2:27 PM
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WHOO.no more cough and flu.no more dripping taps.YAY!raining damn heavily outside now.nice weather for sleeping.but i cant sleep!cos got history test tmr.and i dont even noe test till where.and everyone i asked says its till end of chpt.so im trying to ask till someone tells me its until somewhere in the middle of the chpt.so i wont need to sstudy that much.thats self-deluding.i know that.but sometimes self-deluding is good for health la.bad for results.OH WELL.heck it.i'll just look through the textbk.and try to remember all the facts in one hour.and forget all abt it the next day.yeah.LOL.
im so bloody confused now.think too much.maybe i shouldnt think so much.no i shouldnt.AHH LIGHTNING!THUNDER!okay no more.scary.SIGH!!i dont wanna think anymore.shhhhh.
rockstar!, 4:09 PM
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